Do You SEE? August 28, 2007

As she closes the gap between one-year-old and two-year-old, Squeaks is having complete personality changes.  She’s still my giggly little monster, but the whiny tones that she has taken on are driving us insane.  Sure she’s doing adorable things, such as pushing a rake through the house while yelling, “One, Twoooo, THREE!!”, with each word gaining volume until that last syllable explodes and reverberates off the walls.  But her most recent feat is the phrase “I SEE!”.  And that word is in all caps not only because it’s yelled, but because it’s spoken in tones that usually only dogs can ear.  Ear-drum splitting.  Not only is this phrase used in the correct context — such as, I see that ball! or I see you Mommy! — but she also uses it to ask for something.  I can only assume she gets this from our grammatically incorrect way of getting her to hand things to us:  “Squeaks, let me see that phone before you break it”, for example.  So our days are spent hearing her shriek “I SEE!” at everything.

It’s become natural for us to mimick her when we don’t even realize it.  Tonight we were cooking dinner when The Hubby wanted the seasoning I was using.  He yelled “I SEE!” and we both enjoyed a good laugh.  But it got even funnier when, from two rooms away, Squeaks echoed “I SEE TOO” after hearing her daddy utter her favorite phrase. 

Guess What? August 14, 2007

I’m still alive.  But things have been changing.

When I started blogging, it was because I was a new mother, suffering PPD.  I was scared and having some major problems.  Blogging was my way to vent, as well as to meet other people who could give me advice or just be there for me.  Off and on over the years, I’ve struggled with my mental health.

Now, however, I’ve found a new doctor.  She has literally opened new doors for me.  I’ve switched medications and I’m making leaps and bounds in my recovery.  The sad part is that due to my severe levels of mental problems, I will always have to take medicine.  I was really hoping that I would be able to go off of them, but to no avail.  Oh well, as long as I am in a better place, I guess I can handle taking a pill every day.

Anyway, now that I’m finding myself at a better place in life, I’m finding less and less need for blogging.  I’m spending more time with my little Squeaks.  I’m getting things done around the house.  I’m having fun with friends.  Hell, I’m spending time playing frisbee with the dogs.  I don’t like to spend hours at the computer anymore.  Plus I don’t have the constant need for my online friends to help me through my day.  Now this is not to say that you guys haven’t helped me.  You will never know how much you have.  But now I am confident enough in myself that I don’t have to rely on everyone else.  I’ve even handled two deaths in the last few weeks better than I ever though possible.

So what I’m saying here is that I’m taking a blogging break.  I’m still reading all of your blogs every few days, I just forget to comment!  I will make a better effort to leave comments for you.  And I’ll still update from time to time, but I’m not going to be spending as much time writing for now.  On top of everything that’s going so well, I start school again this week and I’m taking a rather large course load.  I have a feeling once school gets going and I get more settled in I will be back.  Keep checking in because I will be back…just not for a few days, at least!

Thanks again to all of you who have been so great.  AND my email is still up and running (and I’ll be checking it), so you can always contact me that way!

Hectic August 1, 2007

Oh it’s been nothing short of crazy around here.  I know I say that a lot, but that seems to be the normal setting of my life!  So here’s a bulleted update.  Let me know if you want the long version of any story, but I’m betting you won’t!

• My mother had a total knee replacement about 3 weeks ago.  I’ve spent almost every day at her house, helping her get back in shape, doing household stuff for her, and making her do her therapy.  She’s doing wonderfully, but has to have the other knee done in December.  Yuck.
• The Hubby’s grandmother (who is also the woman who basically raised him while his dumb mother was out partying) passed away last week.  It was a very emotional time for us, as it’s been expected for some time.  However, expecting it doesn’t make it any easier.
• I finished my summer courses with straight A’s!  The Hubby threw me a pizza party last night to celebrate!
• I went to my first ever arena football game Saturday night.  The Tulsa Talons played their last home game of the season and I went to cheer them on.  Let me just say that arena football is a BLAST!
• Last week, the first base coach of the Tulsa Drillers baseball team was killed when a line drive hit him in the neck.  He was married with two kids and one on the way.  It’s so horrible every time I think about it.  We’ve been busy helping with fundraisers for the family.
• My sister’s son had surgery yesterday, but all is going well.
• My brother had an experimental eye surgery to help with his hemhorraging eyes.  He’s been fighting this battle for a few years now and nothing will stop it.  We’re praying this surgery works, as he’ll soon be blind otherwise.  Diabetes sucks.

So to sum up, many people had surgery, I went to a football game, and two people died.  Add in the pizza party and that’s pretty much my life!